HI PEOPLE!

well well. im home im home. from where? hees. chalet.

ask what did i do there?

well all i did was. eat sleep and merry! hahas.

basically there wasnt much for me to do lar. wanna swim there but due to AV constraints. hahas. so just too bad.

first day-watched boys cant cry or dont cry lar. its a lesbian show. the butch died in the end. ganna rape by two bastards throughout the night and ganna whacked coz -she is a butch- that got hooked up with a babe one of the bastard fancy. being humiliated and all. how sad. oh yes its a true life story. i feel sad for the butch lar. but at the same time. the dislikes i have for guys increases and for crooked increases too. oh well. bastards are everywhere in the worldly world.

theres food catered so i got up from bed and bathed and had lunch. after lunch there isnt much to do coz darlings still asleep. so me, has got nothing to do. theres people playing mahjong. and so to make myself not FEELING bored. i went back to sleep. and noe what? -ITS RIGHT AFTER MY MEAL- shit man i getting fat. lol

and serene had nothing to do. so, she? JOINED me. hahas.

and these 3 days. all i did was to eat and mahjong and sleep. how? i eat alot can!!

and in all. i slept for around 10 hours there. got up had BBQ and slacked around and played mahjong for another 9 hours. how good? theres practically nothing to do. so serene timothy gerald and myself played and played lor. till gerald is tired. lol.

and my mahjong skills getting better. i 'hu-ed' many times hor!!! serene 'hu-ed' five times please. and playing playing there came this joke around tim with chicken. lol. hahas.

the teachers are damn nice please. bbq-ed for us can. im glad to meet this kinda teachers. will also mahjong one can?!!

no idea why people love going to spooky places to look for those kinda"friends"? i was freaked out lar. but at the same time abit curious about it. and thanks to mahjong, i choose not to go. hahas. they came back not too long after. and cried. coz they saw it.

why go and look for things to scare the freak outta yourself and cry? i wondered.

oh yes. theres this big big blueblack on my leg. sigh. so darn ugly.

and i ganna mosquitoes bite. omg. one dollar fifty cents all clearly seen.

took pictures with serene





lastly, jo darling!!

i miss you like mad and i bet you missed me freaking loads right? haas. i know you love me like mad too coz i feel the same too!

and.. if ever u found no one to talk to. theres always me. theres noone you could trust coz we are all mankind we aint perfect. so put your trust in God lor! but whatever it is. impt secrets think triple twice before saying. hehe. oh. tell me lor. i confirm dont remember it the next day. lol. i bet u know it also. haha!

omg. jo i really LOVE YOU CAN!!! muaccccckkkk!!! iwannahugyou!

and i love smile pasta. my God, this show so funnyyy! and i din know zhang dong liang so handsome one can!!!!!

no mood.

AV came.

just so not in the right time.

its chalet tomorrow can.. #$%@!

and i really want to eat chicken rice. with many many many chilli.

and i really want to eat ice cream. be it from venezia or ben n jerrys.

new uploaded song. from the kdrama Princess Hours and its entitled Perhaps Love???

sarang in ga yo. . "is this love?''

i love the prince in the show. but i like the look Yul has got. i watched the whole espisode twice. nice.

its chalet tomorrow. and ive yet to prepare anything. im lazy lar. pmsing.

i realised i eat alot when im pmsing. the other is the lazy mood and feeling low. hahas.

im alittle sad. why?

coz my gorgor never say goodbye to me when he left for work.

okie im really pmsing............

Morning WORLDLY WORLD!

its 5.06am on a Tuesday morning and im still up hogging on this pathetic computer.

not that i couldnt get to my dreamland. hahas. i just feel like lazing around at home to relax and do nothing. just wanna shake my leg, kiao kah, munch on chips and chocolates, watch tv shows and stay online talking to nobody. lol.

actually i wanted to do nothing and sleep more on monday. well what i wanted for MY monday was to just do nothing lar. be like a spoiltbrat and be one lazy person for a day. meaning: when people ask: what are you gonna do today? reply was: NOTHING. that feeling's damn good. hahas.

but aunt called in the early afternoon, disturbed my sweetest sleep please. chatted and chatted. omg. missy me need sleep please. just that call. my day seems damn BORING. not enough sleep. hahas. well i met jo for lunch and walked around tbp and headed to her place to watch Princess Hours on her laptop. just afew disc and its like 10+ pm. and so i headed home.

i was supposed to be at the Kbox staff party. but im really not in the mood to go. not that im in a foul mood or anything. i just wanna relax sit and do nothing. doing things like lying down watching vcd. that feels super good today. hahas. iwannabemyownprincessforaday.lol

i got home. and watched Princess Hours again on Youtube. that show cant make me cry one! hahas. i watched the other, One litre of tears. omg. I CRIED LIKE MAD PLEASE. its a true story. so TOUCHING!

and im feeling super hungry now lar. i wanna have the traditional breakfast can?! who can eat that with me huh? i feel like heading down ECP and sleep there. kinda miss sitting there from morning to evening listening to the sea breeze and the wind. omg. thats just tooo gooooodd.. too relaxing...

im not working this whole week. why? missy me aint free. lol. im busy playing. chalet's coming up soon. i cant wait. i wanna play and enjoy. coz.. in another 2 weeks plus, school RESUMES. new module new stuffs to get into this brain of mine. i need more brain juice. i think my brain juice might dried up coz i play too much. forget all that i have learned in school. lol. -iknowimtalkingshitagain-

oh yes. i tell you. i was having lunch with jo and i dont know what we were chatting about and the topic came to TONGUE. people with long tongue are usually a good kisser. i pop my tongue out and she said my tongues really long. well i dont usually observe if i do really have a long tongue so im curious about my own tongue and so know what i did? hehe. i took my handphone and looked at my own reflection and sticked my tongue out to see how long can it be.and i looked elsewhere and saw one man looking at me smiling. lol.

i was like SHIT. my stupid act was caught by someone. thats DAMN EMBARRASSING can. HAIYO!

i feel like eating harshbrown too. i wanna eat mi gua si mi lu i wanna have ice cream i wanna eat MOCHI. i wanna eat chocolate cake i wanna eat cheese sausage i wanna eat taiwan porridge i wanna eat jap food i wanna have steamboat i wanna eat tao huey i wanna eat xiao long bao i wanna eat lagsane. etc etc.. noe: all these are my favourite food. hehe. can someone pack this for me as a gift? lol.

and. i wanna go genting. i never go beforeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~i wanna go sentosa, zoo, birdpark,night safari,www,science center and etc.... noe: these are the places i love to go. hehe. ask wheres my favourite hangout? oh God. its always Town. and i think its sooooo boringg! oh. and i wanna EAT THAT FAR EAST LEVEL 2 de CHICKEN RICE. located beside the toilet oneeeee...

awww.imreallyhungryyyyyyyyy.

initially i wanted to sleep the whole of my sunday away.

but then, i dont wish to waste my time away like that. hahas.

and so,

i msged sweetie to ask her to meet me for lunch over at Chinatowns Temporary FoodCentre. hehe.

and its munching and munching sunday for me. hahas

sweetie had fried fish meat beehoon while i had sliced fish meat beehoon and we both shared BBQ stingray. hehe. and we took a bus down to bugis and walked around, do something BUDGET shopping. so i bought two earrings and sweetie got one. hehe. after that budget shopping, we went for dessert and we both had -mi gua si mi lu-. then, walked all the way down to raffles city and had CHEESE SAUSAGE from chippy. and walked to Marina Square and i bought homemade Barley and walked around and bought ShiLins XXL Crispy chicken and after that bought Jollibeans -tao huey-. see. what a muunnchinng sunday huh? hahas.

and all these were done in just FOUR HOURS! lol. we were practically eating and eating lar. i dont know why i just feel like eating lor. hahas.

feel like having mahjong session with jolean cindy serene they all but i cant get serene!

and so im now home blogging and watching the SG idols. -i dont quite like Singapore's Talent Shows- but nonetheless. i think Johnathon aint bad. but. i dont think he has the X-factor. i like guys who have the X-factor kind noe? hahahas!

well lets talk about yesterday.

its Gavins birthday. HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY GAVIN!- thou u aint gonna read this-

was over at MOS with KS and JX and Jacob and their other friends. gotta know some, hmm. theres Clement and i forgot the other two. its either hong fui or i dont know what already. was there to celebrate Gavins 21st. and i drank Sex on the Beach again. well this time it taste so much better than the one i had at Eski bar. and had Chivas and etc la. i lasted till the 3-4th glass and i can no longer take it. KS taught me 5,10 and i kept losing so i finished my drink really fast. hahas. but. KS really good at it can. hahas.

danced a little. Jacobs my dancing partner lar! my Jacob jie mei. haha! He danced the girls move and all. thou looked so damn gayish but still i like it! hahahas! the music over at smoove wasnt great lar. but well just dance. and theres too many people please.-shakehead- i think MOS has got the most people going in can. overall i had a fun time there. hehe. didnt see any handsome dude. too dark and too many people already. hahas.

and its kboxs staff party tomorrow at C8 at what time? 3am!!!! its so damn early.

took pictures


Jacob myself and JX


Jacob and i forgot his name, myself and JX


myself KS and JX










myself with KS.




myself with JX.


JX and i dont know who and GAVIN!


-lunching-


darling!










ITS US AGAIN.


SHE CAMERA SHY! OMG.

tanning session with baby tomorrow! LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

i went to work today.

and as usual, its always BUSY on this day. and i quite like it. coz i dont have any other time to idle around. lol.

well. i wasnt supposed to be late today but I AM LATE. know why? i dont know why but i just did. i took train down and i dont know why i dreamed till i missed my stop. how good. and so im late for work lor. hahas.

at the later evening, i was quite pissed by this stupid customer. shes really MAD. i did my job to tell them to sing their last song and i din know my the other friend did it before i did. that stupid woman screamed at me and said: IM SINGING MY LAST SONG. and. she slammed that damn door on me. and when its time to pay the bill she asked me to leave it there. and i did so. and when i gotta head back to that freaking damn noisy room to take the bill, she asked me to go back later. HOW LONG DO THAT WOMAN NEED TO SETTLE HER BILL MAN!? i wondered. shes damn slow lor. wasting my time away. i dont mind serving those customer with GOOD MANNERs. talking to me in a RESPECTFUL way. thou im serving them. well. i wanted to cry when she slammed the door and screamed at me lar. was kinda shocked. been working at Kbox for so long, this is the FIRST WORST TREATMENT i got from a customer. im so sad lar. sigh. i was even imagining that im grabbing her and slap.punch her damn pretty face and ask her to watch her manners. and feed her red chilli and make her mute. and take a cane to cane her hands so she has got no strength to slam the damn door. telling her IM NOT EASILY TO be BULLIED!. see.. this is how angry and sad and NOT HAPPY i was. i was really gonna tear anytime then. the ganna shock kind?AHHH im angry im angry im angry!! thinking about it IM STILL ANGRY CAN!?!!!! why on earth got such people huh? she never work before isit? sigh!so sad man. sigh..........

and my captain is leaving Marina Squares outlet. im like SIGH why another captain is leaving? and its someone i gotta know for quite awhile and someone unlike other people. as in your -trustworthy- captain kind?

sad to see him going to the other outlet due to the stupid management kbox has got. and i have no idea why the supervisor need so many captain for? employed so many new people. its terrible la. in less than half a year, almost everyone i gotta know for awhile IS GONE! all the -ga ki lang- you noe? how SAD.

im not happy at work. but i act as thou im the damn happy kind. im sucha good actress am i? lol.

for the PAY sake. i shall TOLERATE!

and. i really wanna go to wild wild wet and play can?!

and.....


i really love this can!! can it like drop from heaven? hahas

the time now is 3pm. and its serenes 19th birthday!

wishing her a blissful joyful blessed wonderful pleased thrilled birthday! hahas.

well. im freaking tired now. i went NUH to stay over with my grandma. omg. i didnt sleep well. that pathetic chair for my big butt. so not big enough and its freaking cold over there.

grandma didnt sleep last night. all i can say is she is worried for i dont know what? saying afraid that people might come and catch herself and myself. and she wants to leave the hospital. and she was waiting for me to sleep while i was waiting for her to sleep so i could keep a lookout if she kicks her blanket away or the needle came out or anything. so wait and wait. till 5+am.

oh yes. and im so confirmed that I WILL NOT DONATE BLOOD AT ALL!

why?

i saw this dude doctor looking for my grandmas veins to inject her. and omg. just by looking at the process im crying already. so i guess.. i cant donate blood. and.. omg that dude doctor damn MAN can. and he still got TATTOO one can. the moment i see him, i look at his tattoo first. SCARY.

ive made new friends over at the ward. they are auntie nancy and i forgot the other -my gosh she talks alot. i mean SCOLDS alot- the whole night lar. she was just saying she needs to pass urine and pass motion and keep asking for doctor and etc and etc. and looking for her daughter KAREN. -karen karen?! mummys calling! where are you?

and scold and scold la. den while i was feeding grandma her dinner, aunt nancy talked: to her son, you see her daughter so good feed her one okie. but i replied no im her GRANDDAUGHTER. and she oh so good you see her granddaughter so good feed her one okie. and keep saying and saying and told other ppl see her granddaughter so good feed her one okie see she also feed her water one okie. so nice so lucky the grandmother.

but then she keep scolding her sons. so fierce can. lol and shes catholic and she told the other maid that im like ST ANNE. looking after mother or i dont know what lar. St Anne look after who? so i got myself a new name. jessie anne tay. LOL!

tell you. my grandmas really heavy please. she sleeps in a weird way. for a moment i put her into bed with blanket covered and lying straight. 10 mins later she is diagonal and the blanket is on the other side. imagine the WHOLE night im adjusting her sleeping position..

ytd she had a fall. not a very JL one thou. but left me hugging her crying. my heart pain lar!the nurse in charge so SMALL size. imagine JESSIE having to take care of an old lady like my grandma. its tough job. need two persons help one. and .. grandma was on drip THEN! and know what the HELL happened?? the needle CAME out!! BY FORCE!!not by anyone. its because it entangled on my grandma and POOF it came out. and my heart SANKED! HELLO my grandma scared pain one can! and the other time was the needle got BENDED. omg. how pain man.

so once everythings settled. i went to lie beside grandma and put my head right beside her and den hugged her. and just nice i CRY. HURHUR! grandma was like HAIYO.. HURR haiyo know the Sorrow sound. DAMN. i felt so tortured please.

and i told her i wanna go home already. as im really very tired and feel dirty and sticky and everything. she make a big fuss. she started to haiyo again and tell me her life is very sorrowful and terrible and why likdat? dont know what let her die lar. likdat can!! my heart MORE PAIN can!

sigh. and got one doctor hes so funny he sings and jumps and laughs. hes very nice. and the way he talk reminds me of my Nitec Class Adviser Mr Goh. for a moment i thought Mr Goh has a brother. looking so alike please. hahas.

and. the food at NUH IS TERRIBLE. the chicken rice CMI. the MEEPOK also CMI the OTHERS ALL CMI!

im a pig during daytime and im an eagle at night. lol

lemme ask you guys something.

have you tried Sex On Da Beach?

well i did.

ask me if how was it?

its Taste Bitter. DAMN.

haha are you thinking anyohow? think straight. lol. well. chilled over at eski bar with serene and keli. had a small yet simple celebration for serene dearest. i hope you had a great time. i know you feel so damn loved. hahas. coz i love you mah! hahas.

she was so touched and she gave me a kiss on mua cheek. hehe. and so i give her a kiss in return. lol. if i were to be a crooked. i would have snatch you away from AHEM. LOL. okie im just kidding. it will never happen. hahas.

i was in the rush to get a cake for serene. and i couldnt find any cake shop that has a looking good and tastes great kinda cake. my preference of cake is something like from HANS or SWENSENS or SECRET RECIPE. well now you guys know what kinda cake i would like for my own birthday. LOL.

but i COULDNT SEE any please. so i dropped by POLAR the cake shop to get her a brownie cake. was late to meeting her and she COMPLAINED AND COMPLAINED AND COMPLAINED. saying she waited from DAYLIGHT TO NIGHTIME. i was like HANNAH. SHEEEEEHH... hahas

we chatted and chatted and the keli said something. if im not wrong it was: your someone ur boyfriend couldnt control. someone insensitive to your guy. someone lagi LAG. lol. and added: if i do not know you and from my first impression, your someone people will play with. someone people think you are a wild girl. not till they gotta know you. so it also mean that: dont just judge a book by its COVER. so people, know the inside of me in jessie. lol. and serene said: the trend now is for girls to go after guys. not guys coming after girls. dont be too traditional. and also added: dont have to wait till your guy and you are really together den be willing to let him know how much you love him. just say it. and continue adding: not everyone is good, dont think everyone is good. and said i cant protect myself. and ETC ETC ETC. AIYO! i think i needa do a bigger change in myself. i shall head for a character operation if theres any. LOL! overall, we just exchanged our views about each other. hahas.

oh yes. now lemme complain. AHHHH! theres someone. nice in someway or another. or just BEING TOO NICE? or what i dont know lar. couldnt take it lar. i dislike guys coming to say ;oh sweetie. your too sweet and its so hard for me to stop blah blah. and please dont sleep too much if not will grow fat and the feeling wouldnt be there anymore. and ill die eventhough ive seen you not too long ago but i am missing you already and said not to bother about him coz he is crazie. and loadsa rubbish lar. and ofcoz i know he is crazie so i din even bother to reply.he dont feel it man. and etc i dont remember lar. OMG. dont come and give all these shit to me man. i wouldnt feel: oh my GOD. this guy is SOO DAMN sweet so lovely. so nice! coz i feel its a total rubbish lar!..! HAIYO!!!!

haha and i thought: maybe some guy whom i gotta know for a long time, coming after me saying: jess i got smth to tell you, i really like you and i hope that we could be tgt. and buy me flowers and bring me to some bar to enjoy wine or enjoy a nice dinner over at some romantic places. ill prolly just jump on that guy and say I LIKE YOU TOO! HAHAHAHAHHAHA! okie. im jus talking shit coz that particular someone MUST BE SOMEONE THAT I CAN FEEL DIFFERENT ABOUT! well different in a positive way i mean. haha and now theres PRACTICALLY NOBODY! LOL. maybe serenes too blissfully blessed till im so damn jealous. hahas. serene could actually say: i love you dear to ahem. and come to think of this -iloveyou-word. ive not said to all that ive dated so far. LOL i think ive liked but not loved. haha! but i could say this -iloveyou- word to ALL OF MY GIRLFRIENDS and i really mean it can! OH GOD. am i CROOKED? hahas

okie and if you are thinking WHY i am talking about this. coz im chatting with janesis about relationship now. haha! actually relationship is a crazie thing to me. hahas. so much of confusions and complicated feelings and so many pros and cons about it and seeing people crying and complaining about the other party just made me feel so negative about it. esp dating those NS man. its really tough. my new criteria. ill die die never date NS MENS. lol im just talking shit. -what if the particular ns man can give me a feeling of wanting to jump on him? haha-

okie thats all the rubbish im thinking. hahas. and here are the pictures taken today. and I REALLY LOVE ESKIS PINKY JACKET!


dah man.


HEY SEXY LADY!


and mua


we twa.


see. i told you she gave me a kiss.


my return kiss for her. please do do be honoured darling.











i dont know why that we kept on taking pictures of the same post and etc. but we still TAKE LOR. hahas.








she thinks this ZARA top is nice. i think its damn gay for her to wear it. hahas.






see i really love her.




hehe. guess which is mine? i had Sex On Da Beach. rene had Lychee Martini while keli had Tequila Sunrise. Sex On Da Beach taste terrible to me. hahas. its like taking in medicine?








my hair is getting longer right? haha! ill not cut it short anymore. hahas.






i act jap jap. hahas






shot 1


shot 2


shot 3


rene and i think she look good in this color. and she thinks its damn GAYISH!. hahas.




eh. she think she got the attitude i dont have? hahas. lemme show u mine!


unglam side of me. hahas.




lemme introduce you to :-from left to right- tequila sunrise then lychee martini then to sex on da beach.










HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY DEAR!


may all ur wishes come true in Jesus NAME! aMEN AMEN!